surat buat Tuhan

today..wake up so early
early than before.
 

heart is pain
whenever eyes was opened,
its always remembered to the sadness.

today, 25 june
how i should faces the next day
its going to be 28june
i wish i can take out my heart from my body
hold it tight
so, whatever happen, heart not getting hurt..

let me die
i dont need this pain
oh God
why this happen to me
im not strong
people dont understand..only You understand
God.

patah

everyone is always asking me what's wrong,
but i don't even think it makes any sense,
it just_my heart hurts

my heart is broken
my love is gone
my days are empty
my nights are long
my tears run d0wn
for the days gone wrong
i am forsaken
i cant go on
i lose myself in all these fights
i lose my sense of wrong and right.
i cry, i cry.again and again
i'm shaking from the pain that's in my head.
i just want to crawl into my bed and throw away
the life that i led.
but i won't let it die
i wish that i could take it back,
but it's over
i wish i would die today
because i have no reason to live anymore...

They no need to know that inside were broken.
I tried to patch it out but its too shattered.

kadang nafas terasa indah, 

sampai lupa kita punya masalah.

bahagia ada, tapi tak mungkin kekal lama,

jadi sila waspada.

sekelip mata boleh hilang dari mata.

#i wont cry on my perfect day.  

....

jiwa aku kosong.

tolong,

aku pun mahu bahagia, Ya Tuhan.

# imnotloser

usaha

kalau kau nak, usaha lah !
usaha sampai betul betul jumpa jalan mati. 

kita sama rumpun,
kau kutuk malaysia ibarat kau kutuk negara kau sendiri.
senang cerita,
ibarat kau ludah adik kandung kau.
faham?

lain

2007, 43
2008, 44
2009, 46

unit : kg

stop increase la nombor!
tak sanggup memandang.
sial.

pantulan

13 jun 2009.

momen

kita,
sedut udara sama,
berpijak di tanah yang sama,

kita,
argue benda yang entah apa apa,
gelak sakan tak kisahkan sesiapa,
melantak sampai nak terkeluar balik semua,

itu kita,

10 jun 2009.
momen cun untuk kita.

promise

I make this solemn promise to you:

To be your lover when you need to be loved,

your doctor when you are ill, your army when you go to war,

your umbrella when life rains down on you,

your rock when you get weary,

your shield when you need defense,

your spirit when you are drained,

your pillow when you need to rest,

your voice when no one can hear you,

your ear when no one will listen,

your comfort when you feel pain,

your hero when you are under duress,

your sunshine when darkness falls,

your answer when questions arise,

your inspiration to overcome obstacles,

your hand to hold when you are frightened,

your kiss that wakes you everyday,

and your "I love you" each and every night. I am yours... all of me.

#copy paste

jantung

Jantung aku, keluarga.
Tiada keluarga, jantung gagal berfungsi.
Gagalnya berkeluarga, mati lah jantung.

Buruk baik keluarga, hadap semua.
Simpan jantung rapat rapat.

Tak kan mampu aku robek keluar jantung dari kantung.

hidup

Kadang baik, kadang buruk.

Bila bahagia kejap, muram durjana lama lama.

Bila sikit lagi mahu berjaya, tergelincir, gagal pula.

Kalau kuat, bangun.

Kalau lemah, duduk. Putus asa.


Tolong. Jangan begini.

Jangan.

bosan

menulis bukan untuk hilangkan bosan
bukan untuk buat orang kesian
jauh sekali jadi tatapan

sekadar untuk luahkan perasaan
tambah,
buang rasa sialan.

mula

aku bermula

DISINI.